It's been almost two full weeks since I've written anything on any of my blogs... And I ask myself, "Why?" Too busy? That's as lame an excuse as it gets. Truth be told... As if I can hide anything from You my Father in Heaven... I've been angry and upset and hurt... By a lot of stuff and a lot of people. I've just not wanted to talk about it. I've left it in Your (GOD) more than capable hands. But I need an outlet. Worship is one... And I just love worshipping my LORD (yesterday, was particularly awesome). Writing is another, because it helps me think and express my emotions, which I "normally" keep bottled up inside, at least the really deep and wounded ones. I'm know for baring my emotions on my sleeve--joy, happiness, unhappiness, anger, frustration, love for someone (actually, the emotions that go with loving someone)--I can't hide these. These show up on my face immediately. But there are deeper emotions... I guess you can call them "true" emotions. It's not that I fake the others. I'm just more comfortable and know how to express them. But when someone or something wounds me deeply or even touches my heart in a loving and beautiful way, I don't always know how to express that. So they stay inside. It's the negative emotions that can hurt me though. Those emotions led me down a dark path of depression for 13+ years. I fantasied about either killing myself or being killed (Thank God for my Catholic upbringing though, because I believed I would NEVER get to heaven if I committed suicide, so I never actually attempted suicide... Though I suppose, I had committed emotionally and even spiritual suicide at multiple times during the dark years of my life. Even though I was physically alive, I was not emotionally or spiritually alive).
I will never go to that dark place again. So, I continue to worship, and I will continue to write.
Monday, February 14, 2005
Thursday, January 27, 2005
Stuff on my heart
I'm just meditating on some things that have happened recently, which seem to be a repeat of past events as well. It has to do with the church, in general, but more specifically about the church in Quebec.
I love my city and my province and my country, but there's stuff that really bothers me, especially in the church. Now, this is not an attack or judgment on the church... Because I love and believe in the church. It is Christ's body! And so, that's why I want to be very careful what I write... And that's why for the moment all I want to post is the following Scripture passages, and when I have the words I'll write what's on my heart.
I love my city and my province and my country, but there's stuff that really bothers me, especially in the church. Now, this is not an attack or judgment on the church... Because I love and believe in the church. It is Christ's body! And so, that's why I want to be very careful what I write... And that's why for the moment all I want to post is the following Scripture passages, and when I have the words I'll write what's on my heart.
"Therefore, brethren, since we have full freedom and confidence to enter into the [Holy of] Holies [by the power and virtue] in the blood of Jesus, By this fresh (new) and living way which He initiated and dedicated and opened for us through the separating curtain (veil of the Holy of Holies), that is, through His flesh, And since we have [such] a great and wonderful and noble Priest [Who rules] over the house of God, Let us all come forward and draw near with true (honest and sincere) hearts in unqualified assurance and absolute conviction engendered by faith (by that leaning of the entire human personality on God in absolute trust and confidence in His power, wisdom, and goodness), having our hearts sprinkled and purified from a guilty (evil) conscience and our bodies cleansed with pure water. So let us seize and hold fast and retain without wavering the hope we cherish and confess and our acknowledgement of it, for He Who promised is reliable (sure) and faithful to His word. And let us consider and give attentive, continuous care to watching over one another, studying how we may stir up (stimulate and incite) to love and helpful deeds and noble activities, Not forsaking or neglecting to assemble together [as believers], as is the habit of some people, but admonishing (warning, urging, and encouraging) one another, and all the more faithfully as you see the day approaching." - Hebrews 10:19-25
"The [uncompromisingly] righteous shall flourish like the palm tree [be long-lived, stately, upright, useful, and fruitful]; they shall grow like a cedar in Lebanon [majestic, stable, durable, and incorruptible]. Planted in the house of the Lord, they shall flourish in the courts of our God.[Growing in grace] they shall still bring forth fruit in old age; they shall be full of sap [of spiritual vitality] and [rich in the] verdure [of trust, love, and contentment]." - Psalm 92:12-14Be blessed!
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
Prisoners of Hope
I just read this article by Victoria Boyson. Man, it was awesome. Read it here! I will share my thoughts a little later.
Thursday, January 20, 2005
Morning Prayer... A Sacred Cow?
I am not--usually--a morning person. I have gone through seasons in my live where I have been. There was a period of about 6 months from November 2000 to about March or April 2001, where I would go to bed, earliest, midnight, but more often than not, I got to bed around 2:00 am. At the same time, I was waking up at 5:00 am without an alarm. I would then get up and go prayer walking for about 30 minutes to an hour, and come back to our fellowship centre for our morning prayer at 6:30 am. And then I'd be off to work. THAT WAS OF GOD!
Normally, I can get up early with the help of my alarm, but I'm usually very groggy. I can focus and concentrate for a short period, like for prayer, but then all I want to do is go back to bed.
Normally, I have trouble eating soon after I wake up. I prefer eating an hour, even two hours, after I have finally woken up--fully and completely (Tragically Hip reference ;) .
Normally, I seem to be more productive in the evenings, and I'll go as far as to say, I'm more productive late at night. At least, looking back at my experiences, this seems to be true. I tried the "waking-up-early-to-get-more-things-done" thing, and it really did not work for me. The reality is that the afternoon or late morning is my MOST productive times, but if I wake up too early, I'm tired and want a nap during the afternoon.
OK, all this to say that I'm not a morning person (man, I can be long-winded sometimes). So what brought this on. Well, it's that whole "waking-up-early-to-spend-time-with-God doctrine" the church seems to advocate in whatever way: by clubbing you over the head with it or in some more subtle ways. But, can we say it really is a doctrine? Do we have Scriptural references that defend this notion?
Well, of course, there is the famous Mark 1:35 passage: "Very early in the morning, while it was still dark, Jesus got up, left the house and went off to a solitary place, where he prayed." We tend to focus on the very early part, but the fact is that never again does Scripture mention Jesus going to pray early in the morning. It does however mention Jesus praying at pretty much any time before performing certain miracles, and a couple of "all-nighters" (one of them being the night in Gethsemane). Also, from Mark 1:35, I believe the main issue or lesson was the whole idea that Jesus went to pray in a solitary place. I absolutely believe and agree with the need for personal one-on-one time with God in prayer. If you are living a "Christian" life, yet you have little or no solitary prayer time, let me be so bold and say, you are then far from where God wants you to be. But I digress.
The reason for this little "rant", besides getting others to think and ruffle a few feathers, is to say that all this is really a moot point with the 24/7 movement happening all around the world. Prayer and worship is no longer to be just for a few minutes or hours in the morning and that's all. No God is looking for an army of warriors who will keep watch and fight 24 hours a day and 7 days a week. That's why we have people who LOVE waking up at the (excuse the expression) God-awful hours of the early morning, and others, like me, who are not bothered by going to bed at 2 or 3 or 4 or 5 in the morning! God needs us all. The people of this land need us. I know that this is stirring something in some people. I know that there is something in your vision that includes this vision of prayer and worship going on 24 hours a day... Even when half the world is sleeping (hey, they can't fight it then, right?).
I'd love to hear from you. Let's mobilize this army. I especially looking for you Canadians out there. We seem to always be a few steps behind. BUT no more. We will be frontrunners. There will be a sound out of Canada that the world has never heard. Rise up warriors and cry out to your King! ... Any time of the day ;) Had to slip that in! Down with the sacred cow!
Be blessed.
Normally, I can get up early with the help of my alarm, but I'm usually very groggy. I can focus and concentrate for a short period, like for prayer, but then all I want to do is go back to bed.
Normally, I have trouble eating soon after I wake up. I prefer eating an hour, even two hours, after I have finally woken up--fully and completely (Tragically Hip reference ;) .
Normally, I seem to be more productive in the evenings, and I'll go as far as to say, I'm more productive late at night. At least, looking back at my experiences, this seems to be true. I tried the "waking-up-early-to-get-more-things-done" thing, and it really did not work for me. The reality is that the afternoon or late morning is my MOST productive times, but if I wake up too early, I'm tired and want a nap during the afternoon.
OK, all this to say that I'm not a morning person (man, I can be long-winded sometimes). So what brought this on. Well, it's that whole "waking-up-early-to-spend-time-with-God doctrine" the church seems to advocate in whatever way: by clubbing you over the head with it or in some more subtle ways. But, can we say it really is a doctrine? Do we have Scriptural references that defend this notion?
Well, of course, there is the famous Mark 1:35 passage: "Very early in the morning, while it was still dark, Jesus got up, left the house and went off to a solitary place, where he prayed." We tend to focus on the very early part, but the fact is that never again does Scripture mention Jesus going to pray early in the morning. It does however mention Jesus praying at pretty much any time before performing certain miracles, and a couple of "all-nighters" (one of them being the night in Gethsemane). Also, from Mark 1:35, I believe the main issue or lesson was the whole idea that Jesus went to pray in a solitary place. I absolutely believe and agree with the need for personal one-on-one time with God in prayer. If you are living a "Christian" life, yet you have little or no solitary prayer time, let me be so bold and say, you are then far from where God wants you to be. But I digress.
The reason for this little "rant", besides getting others to think and ruffle a few feathers, is to say that all this is really a moot point with the 24/7 movement happening all around the world. Prayer and worship is no longer to be just for a few minutes or hours in the morning and that's all. No God is looking for an army of warriors who will keep watch and fight 24 hours a day and 7 days a week. That's why we have people who LOVE waking up at the (excuse the expression) God-awful hours of the early morning, and others, like me, who are not bothered by going to bed at 2 or 3 or 4 or 5 in the morning! God needs us all. The people of this land need us. I know that this is stirring something in some people. I know that there is something in your vision that includes this vision of prayer and worship going on 24 hours a day... Even when half the world is sleeping (hey, they can't fight it then, right?).
I'd love to hear from you. Let's mobilize this army. I especially looking for you Canadians out there. We seem to always be a few steps behind. BUT no more. We will be frontrunners. There will be a sound out of Canada that the world has never heard. Rise up warriors and cry out to your King! ... Any time of the day ;) Had to slip that in! Down with the sacred cow!
Be blessed.
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
I will give you the House!
While we were worshipping on Sunday at church, this is what I heard from GOD:
The first thoughts through my head were, "Thank you, Father, for the house you are giving me and Cindy." But then I got this strong sense that it was not just a house for me and Cindy, but also the House of the LORD... i.e. our very own church building! Then I sensed that it also was referring to the International House of Prayer & Worship. God was saying He would give these to us... Of course, that always accompanies or requires some kind of action from us. We have to take some steps of faith and start doing things, as if, we are going to get these things.
I'm glad to say, we took our first step as a church towards getting our own church building. We went to see a Franciscan church. The main sanctuary has not been used in 20 years. But the problem was that we have no kitchen, no fellowship room, no classrooms. So we go on and take step number two!
Stay Tuned!
"I will give you the house."
The first thoughts through my head were, "Thank you, Father, for the house you are giving me and Cindy." But then I got this strong sense that it was not just a house for me and Cindy, but also the House of the LORD... i.e. our very own church building! Then I sensed that it also was referring to the International House of Prayer & Worship. God was saying He would give these to us... Of course, that always accompanies or requires some kind of action from us. We have to take some steps of faith and start doing things, as if, we are going to get these things.
I'm glad to say, we took our first step as a church towards getting our own church building. We went to see a Franciscan church. The main sanctuary has not been used in 20 years. But the problem was that we have no kitchen, no fellowship room, no classrooms. So we go on and take step number two!
Stay Tuned!
Been sick...
It's crazy... I've been through this sine wave of illness for the past 2 months! I get quite sick, then I recover 80%, and then--WHAM--I'm sick again! I haven't been able to fully recover my strength... And the fact that I am fasting does not make it better. Though I did read somewhere that when you fast, you body focuses on other matters in the body other than digesting food. And so, in theory, fasting should help when you're sick.
It hasn't helped me!
Anyway, it's also made it hard to spend time with God... Real quality time. But He's always talking... It's just these darn clogged ears! :)
I know that the LORD is the God of Healing. By Jesus' stripes I am healed. I know. So I know that this is just a distraction to keep me from God... Which I will not allow to happen. I will press on! I will push forward! I will see God's goals for my life for 2005 fulfilled! AMEN!
It hasn't helped me!
Anyway, it's also made it hard to spend time with God... Real quality time. But He's always talking... It's just these darn clogged ears! :)
I know that the LORD is the God of Healing. By Jesus' stripes I am healed. I know. So I know that this is just a distraction to keep me from God... Which I will not allow to happen. I will press on! I will push forward! I will see God's goals for my life for 2005 fulfilled! AMEN!
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
Plans for our cathedral/church
I'm sick and tired of the building we're in. What a pain it is when you are trying to serve and worship God, and do His will, but you are not allowed to fully use the building you are in. The days of renting are over. The days of having non-believers dictating what, where, when and how we worship God is over! AMEN! HALLELUJAH! Last night at our prayer meeting, GOD brought a few thoughts back to mind. I've been thinking about these things for the last couple of months, but the idea and vision as a whole came together last night. You'll notice that I use the pronoun "we". The reason is that this is a decision and a plan that needs to be executed by my church, led by my pastors. And I am more than willing to do more than my share to see this come to pass. Anyway, here is the plan.
1. We need to decide exactly what we need out of a cathedral... And we should not minimize it!
1. We need to decide exactly what we need out of a cathedral... And we should not minimize it!
a) We need parking for at least 100 cars (even if it is on the street)2. We need to put together a professional fund-raising campaign and presentation.
b) We need classrooms
c) We need a sanctuary that seats at least 500
d) We need a sanctuary that is heated
e) We need a kitchen that can serve a meal for 200 people
f) We need an area that can be converted into a coffee shop/lounge
g) We need a fellowship room for after services by the coffee shop
h) We need a gymnasium where kids can run around, with basketball nets!
i) etc... This is still in the works with the pastors.
The reason for this is that, right now, we don't have many people with deep pockets in our church. However, I believe that there are many wealthy people and companies just waiting for us to present to them our vision, and they would be more than happy to support and fund us to buy our new cathedral.3. We need to decide on an amount that would be "sufficient" to buy our cathedral.
$1,000,000?4. We need to make a huge fund-raiser poster to put in the sanctuary on Sunday.
This would give everyone a visual of how our campaign is going and to encourage everyone to own the vision and to do their part.5. Last, we need to declare, promote, and display our vision of our cathedral.
When we see it with our eyes of faith... Then we will be able to conceive it in the natural as well!
Feeling Depressed
I'm not having a good day at work... I'm really frustrated... I'm not a computer technician, but that's been the bulk of my work. I'm also sick and tired of not knowing how long I'll be here. I'm sick and tired of not having any definite direction for my career. I'M ALL OVER THE PLACE!
I'm tired of working in technology.
I want to get planted in the career/ministry I'll be working in for the rest of my life!
I'm tired of not knowing where I'm going. I'm tired of doing crap I don't like. I'm tired of working just for a paycheck!!!!
What's my dream job... It involves music (playing, listening)... It involves writing (on the web, blogging, screenplays, movies, maybe a book)... It involves teaching... Being with people... Talking to people about Jesus... It has to be creative in nature... And it pays well!
Is there a job like that out there? I don't know!!
But I refuse to allow depression to enter my life ever again. Even though I may not like where I am... It is GOD's will for my life right now. I just pray for some breakthrough for me and my wife.
I'm tired of working in technology.
I want to get planted in the career/ministry I'll be working in for the rest of my life!
I'm tired of not knowing where I'm going. I'm tired of doing crap I don't like. I'm tired of working just for a paycheck!!!!
What's my dream job... It involves music (playing, listening)... It involves writing (on the web, blogging, screenplays, movies, maybe a book)... It involves teaching... Being with people... Talking to people about Jesus... It has to be creative in nature... And it pays well!
Is there a job like that out there? I don't know!!
But I refuse to allow depression to enter my life ever again. Even though I may not like where I am... It is GOD's will for my life right now. I just pray for some breakthrough for me and my wife.
Monday, January 10, 2005
My Future, My Prospering, My Goals - 2005
I have a LOT of ideas. I want to do so much. But invariably, I get overwhelmed or frustrated that I barely get anything done. Maybe it's also been because I have never felt like I knew what was really my purpose and my reason for being on this earth. 2005, I believe, is a very different year. And so I am focusing on 10 things I want to accomplish or see come to pass in my life this year. I know that each one is part of a bigger picture for my life, but at the same time are all interconnected in some way I have yet to fully see or understand. I just humbly and prayerfully lay them at my LORD's feet and leave many of the details into His care.
1. Put together a fund-raising campaign, and buy our cathedral!!!
2. Baby - Cindy and I are actively praying and "working" at this one... And a number of people have said we'd have twins... We'll see :)
3. Have a family income of $100,000/year - This is Cindy's, but I am agreeing and believing with her. Once she gets a full-time position, we will basically be there.
4. Buy a single-family home - this again is Cindy's, but I am agreeing with her and riding her faith on this one. With the market the way it is, and our finances the way they are, it WILL require a miracle from GOD. But He's more than able!
5. Put together business plan for the 24/7 House of Prayer & Praise - it will be a non-profit organization, so I need to get some info of how they are run.
6. Put together business plan for my coffee shop idea - incorporate the name.
7. Put together business plan for the traffic/driving awareness program.
8. Establish Project Revelation as a real, viable, working company - look into incorporating it.
9. Be consumer debt free
10. Go to Kansas City to visit their International House of Prayer.
Friday, January 07, 2005
Setting Priorities
There's a lot I want to write about -- nothing new -- and with three separate blogs and a church web-site, I've got the space and place, just not the time. However, I read something today that I received in my email from one of those daily "God's Promises" emails. (If you want to get that email just click here and subscribe to the "God's Daily Promises". Be careful, there's other ones there too. Make sure you read carefully before you click anything. That's how spamming starts!) So that's where I want to start.
But how hard is it to do in such a society as ours?! How hard is it to put God as our top priority every day?! I'm not making excuses and I'm not shirking my responsibility, but honestly, with work, family, friends, church (!?! Yeah, church responsibilities CAN be devoid of any service/worship to GOD) and your own needs/wants, how do you practically make God your priority?
Well, every day, we make something our priority based on many factors: ease of doing it, brings joy or happiness, brings money, get instant or fairly quick results/fruit from it, etc. So, we do prioritize. Where your heart is, that is where you will put your priorities.
Let's not kid ourselves. The reason you don't take part in more things with the church or do more things for God is that, deep down inside, you have other priorities. But the reality is, as God's children, He is our number one priority... At least He should be. And the great thing about it, when we do make Him our number one priority, then ALL the other stuff will be taken care of. Boy, THAT is where, I believe most of us get hung up. We don't really believe everything else will be taken care of. And I think I have the reason why. We separate the two!
Serving God and make Him a priority is one thing. Prayer, worship time, service, that is all separate and for God. BUT, my work, my family, my needs are a whole other entity that require my attention and time as well. NO.
When we change the way we view what service and worship to God is, then we can see that it is all part of the same thing. Why are we so dualistic (I don't know if that's the right word here) in the west. We need a more holistic approach to life. WHATEVER we do, we must do it as if we are doing it for the LORD. Heard that one before? (1 Corinthians 10:31)
I think too many Christians take Matthew 6:33, and say, "OK, I'll give God my morning devotion time." What? That's 10 minutes? 30 minutes? Maybe 1 hour? Don't get me wrong that's great... But then what about the rest of the day? God doesn't want us all to become monks and "worship" Him 24/7 (though there may be some of us out there). But He does want us to put Him at the forefront of everything we do. In that way, we do put Him first in all things!
I remember a few years back when I was a TA at Condordia University. I was administrating a lab exam. And there was this Indian student (from India, not native), and before every question, I saw him put his hands together, bow his head, and mutter something under his breath. He was praying (to some hindu god). I was amazed at how he was giving each question to his god before he even attempted it. Now, maybe it was because he wasn't prepared and he did not know what he was doing (he failed the exam). Nevertheless, the point was that even in such a small, seemingly insignificant thing, his god was made a priority.
How often do we do that? How often do we recognize the our God, the True and Living God, the One and Only God, has given us everything we have: family, friends, work, church, clothes, food. How often do we thank and praise Him for all that. You know, I am so thankful to God for the first two and a half years of marriage with Cindy, during which we went through some real tough financial times. Once we went two weeks eating instant noodles because we could not buy anything else. But it taught us to trust God for all our needs. The amazing thing was that even though we were VERY tight on cash, working part-time only (unable to find full-time work), we never lacked. We never missed a mortgage payment. We never missed a car payment. We never missed a meal, for a reason other than fasting... And trust me, we did not fast all that much in those first couple of years.
So how do we put God first, practically. I think, again, the Apostle Paul gives us the clue. "Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18)
Be blessed!
__________________________________________That's a new way of putting Matthew 6:33. The more traditional translations sound more like this: "But seek first His Kingdom and His Righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." I know this. I know it's good. I know it's true. And if you've been a Christian for some time, you know this as well.
Seeking God's will first brings perspective
How do I set priorities?
". . .And He will give you all you need from day to day if you live for Him and make the Kingdom of God your primary concern. "
Matthew 6:33
Be intentional about priorities. Set them and tend to them first. Only then will your life have its fullest meaning.
__________________________________________
But how hard is it to do in such a society as ours?! How hard is it to put God as our top priority every day?! I'm not making excuses and I'm not shirking my responsibility, but honestly, with work, family, friends, church (!?! Yeah, church responsibilities CAN be devoid of any service/worship to GOD) and your own needs/wants, how do you practically make God your priority?
Well, every day, we make something our priority based on many factors: ease of doing it, brings joy or happiness, brings money, get instant or fairly quick results/fruit from it, etc. So, we do prioritize. Where your heart is, that is where you will put your priorities.
Let's not kid ourselves. The reason you don't take part in more things with the church or do more things for God is that, deep down inside, you have other priorities. But the reality is, as God's children, He is our number one priority... At least He should be. And the great thing about it, when we do make Him our number one priority, then ALL the other stuff will be taken care of. Boy, THAT is where, I believe most of us get hung up. We don't really believe everything else will be taken care of. And I think I have the reason why. We separate the two!
Serving God and make Him a priority is one thing. Prayer, worship time, service, that is all separate and for God. BUT, my work, my family, my needs are a whole other entity that require my attention and time as well. NO.
When we change the way we view what service and worship to God is, then we can see that it is all part of the same thing. Why are we so dualistic (I don't know if that's the right word here) in the west. We need a more holistic approach to life. WHATEVER we do, we must do it as if we are doing it for the LORD. Heard that one before? (1 Corinthians 10:31)
I think too many Christians take Matthew 6:33, and say, "OK, I'll give God my morning devotion time." What? That's 10 minutes? 30 minutes? Maybe 1 hour? Don't get me wrong that's great... But then what about the rest of the day? God doesn't want us all to become monks and "worship" Him 24/7 (though there may be some of us out there). But He does want us to put Him at the forefront of everything we do. In that way, we do put Him first in all things!
I remember a few years back when I was a TA at Condordia University. I was administrating a lab exam. And there was this Indian student (from India, not native), and before every question, I saw him put his hands together, bow his head, and mutter something under his breath. He was praying (to some hindu god). I was amazed at how he was giving each question to his god before he even attempted it. Now, maybe it was because he wasn't prepared and he did not know what he was doing (he failed the exam). Nevertheless, the point was that even in such a small, seemingly insignificant thing, his god was made a priority.
How often do we do that? How often do we recognize the our God, the True and Living God, the One and Only God, has given us everything we have: family, friends, work, church, clothes, food. How often do we thank and praise Him for all that. You know, I am so thankful to God for the first two and a half years of marriage with Cindy, during which we went through some real tough financial times. Once we went two weeks eating instant noodles because we could not buy anything else. But it taught us to trust God for all our needs. The amazing thing was that even though we were VERY tight on cash, working part-time only (unable to find full-time work), we never lacked. We never missed a mortgage payment. We never missed a car payment. We never missed a meal, for a reason other than fasting... And trust me, we did not fast all that much in those first couple of years.
So how do we put God first, practically. I think, again, the Apostle Paul gives us the clue. "Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18)
Be blessed!
Monday, January 03, 2005
Obeying God brings great joy
Obeying God brings great joy
How can I be happy in the midst of difficult circumstances?
"Dear friends, don't be surprised at the fiery trials you are going through. . . . Instead, be very glad—because . . . You will have the wonderful joy of sharing his glory. "
1 Peter 4: 12-13 NLT
As 2005 has started, I am on fire for God. I am so happy. I am so full of joy. But 2004 was a tough year. I was "joking" last year in January, saying "it's been a tough year!" And the year was only a couple of weeks old. But it was: Financially, relationally, career-wise, family-wise, church-wise. I was unsure of who I was, where I was going or even what I wanted to do. I went through many fiery trials.
But, now as those trials have ended I can look back and see that they were for my good. They made me strong. They "forced" me to grow. So don't be alarmed or freaked out by trials. Yes, they are tough at the moment, but you will come out of them, and when you do you will see the great and positive change. So learn to be glad, because the joy that comes is so great! Thank you, LORD!
Father, thank you so much that I could share in your glory on this earth and at this time. May Your light in me shine bright in 2005 for others to see You and come to You!
How can I be happy in the midst of difficult circumstances?
"Dear friends, don't be surprised at the fiery trials you are going through. . . . Instead, be very glad—because . . . You will have the wonderful joy of sharing his glory. "
1 Peter 4: 12-13 NLT
As 2005 has started, I am on fire for God. I am so happy. I am so full of joy. But 2004 was a tough year. I was "joking" last year in January, saying "it's been a tough year!" And the year was only a couple of weeks old. But it was: Financially, relationally, career-wise, family-wise, church-wise. I was unsure of who I was, where I was going or even what I wanted to do. I went through many fiery trials.
But, now as those trials have ended I can look back and see that they were for my good. They made me strong. They "forced" me to grow. So don't be alarmed or freaked out by trials. Yes, they are tough at the moment, but you will come out of them, and when you do you will see the great and positive change. So learn to be glad, because the joy that comes is so great! Thank you, LORD!
Father, thank you so much that I could share in your glory on this earth and at this time. May Your light in me shine bright in 2005 for others to see You and come to You!
Happy New Year.
Well, Happy New Year!
It's been a while since I've written anything, but the holidays were really good. I have to thank and praise God for that. Christmas day was actually enjoyable from start to finish (You have to understand that, with my family, eventually, someone will invariably say something that will hurt or offend another family member, or we'll get into some big argument--it's not that we're bad people, it's the way we learnt to talk and deal with out feelings... But it DIDN'T happen this year! I had a really good time with my folks, my brother and his wife).
With my first posting of 2005, I want to send out a blessing to anyone who is reading this (all one of you :). But how many people are reading this is unimportant. What is important is that I am declaring this over the web!
2005 is a year of the Lord's favour... If you will believe it! For the last month and a half, that's all that I've been hearing, reading and seeing... The Lord's favour! Ultimately, what that means is that we will receive preferential treatment when we go to work, or school, or church, or when we meet others, when we try to close a deal or a sale, or in what ever other area you can think of. It doesn't mean will will not have to do our part. But it DOES mean we will see results we weren't expecting, if we're persistent enough. Let me explain with two examples out of my own life.
The first is how Cindy and I bought our house. At the time (nearly three years ago), I was only working part-time as a teacher at Dawson, and my contract was up in June. We were getting married in May. Cindy was only working part-time and was in school. I had huge amounts of debt, plus car payments. My debt ratio was insanely high (your debt ratio is some calculation banks do that compares your salary to your debts... And normally, it should be less that 30% or so... I was somewhere over 40 or 50!!!) We also did not have to down payment for the house. But I believed that this house was to be ours. I believed God would give it to us. At that time, I had no concept of God's favour... But nevertheless I believe God would do it for me. And what did He do?
Well, we got approved for the loan (miracle #1) and I didn't close all my other debts (miracle #2). We got the house for $18,000 less than the asking price (miracle #3). I moved in one week before our wedding (miracle #4). The monetary gifts from our wedding paid our down payment and more (miracle #5). And we got to live in the house rent/mortgage payment free for three months (miracle #6). THAT is the favour of the Lord.
The second example happened more recently. Cindy and I applied for a line of credit so that we could consolidate our consumer debt. I still had a whack-load of debt, plus our tax return payments for 2003, which we could not pay due to our financial situation (I still was only working part-time as was Cindy). Anyway, we had been to the Royal Bank, and they declined us because my debt ratio was too high. Besides the payments would have been over $500 a month, and we could not handle that (I was missing payments on the credit cards because we were paying over $500 a month on them). So on Cindy's faith, we went to the National Bank and asked for a line of credit, which is actually more difficult to get than a personal loan, because the payment plan is more flexible. To make a long story short, we got it... And the only reason is the favour of the Lord!
So go out in 2005 and believe that God's favour is upon you in everything you do. Expect to be blessed. Expect to receive preferential treatment. Expect to get the unexpected!
Be blessed.
It's been a while since I've written anything, but the holidays were really good. I have to thank and praise God for that. Christmas day was actually enjoyable from start to finish (You have to understand that, with my family, eventually, someone will invariably say something that will hurt or offend another family member, or we'll get into some big argument--it's not that we're bad people, it's the way we learnt to talk and deal with out feelings... But it DIDN'T happen this year! I had a really good time with my folks, my brother and his wife).
With my first posting of 2005, I want to send out a blessing to anyone who is reading this (all one of you :). But how many people are reading this is unimportant. What is important is that I am declaring this over the web!
2005 is a year of the Lord's favour... If you will believe it! For the last month and a half, that's all that I've been hearing, reading and seeing... The Lord's favour! Ultimately, what that means is that we will receive preferential treatment when we go to work, or school, or church, or when we meet others, when we try to close a deal or a sale, or in what ever other area you can think of. It doesn't mean will will not have to do our part. But it DOES mean we will see results we weren't expecting, if we're persistent enough. Let me explain with two examples out of my own life.
The first is how Cindy and I bought our house. At the time (nearly three years ago), I was only working part-time as a teacher at Dawson, and my contract was up in June. We were getting married in May. Cindy was only working part-time and was in school. I had huge amounts of debt, plus car payments. My debt ratio was insanely high (your debt ratio is some calculation banks do that compares your salary to your debts... And normally, it should be less that 30% or so... I was somewhere over 40 or 50!!!) We also did not have to down payment for the house. But I believed that this house was to be ours. I believed God would give it to us. At that time, I had no concept of God's favour... But nevertheless I believe God would do it for me. And what did He do?
Well, we got approved for the loan (miracle #1) and I didn't close all my other debts (miracle #2). We got the house for $18,000 less than the asking price (miracle #3). I moved in one week before our wedding (miracle #4). The monetary gifts from our wedding paid our down payment and more (miracle #5). And we got to live in the house rent/mortgage payment free for three months (miracle #6). THAT is the favour of the Lord.
The second example happened more recently. Cindy and I applied for a line of credit so that we could consolidate our consumer debt. I still had a whack-load of debt, plus our tax return payments for 2003, which we could not pay due to our financial situation (I still was only working part-time as was Cindy). Anyway, we had been to the Royal Bank, and they declined us because my debt ratio was too high. Besides the payments would have been over $500 a month, and we could not handle that (I was missing payments on the credit cards because we were paying over $500 a month on them). So on Cindy's faith, we went to the National Bank and asked for a line of credit, which is actually more difficult to get than a personal loan, because the payment plan is more flexible. To make a long story short, we got it... And the only reason is the favour of the Lord!
So go out in 2005 and believe that God's favour is upon you in everything you do. Expect to be blessed. Expect to receive preferential treatment. Expect to get the unexpected!
Be blessed.
Thursday, December 23, 2004
MERRY CHRISTMAS
I may not be able to get to a computer for the next couple of days, so I just wanted to send out a Christmas blessing! May your holidays be filled with love, joy, hope, and happiness. And may the love of God fill your whole being!
Be blessed!
Be blessed!
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
Success... What is it? (part 4)
I really like the commentary to Joshua 1:8 in the Amplified Translation. It writes, "This is the only place in the early English versions where the word "success" is found. The secret of success is given in verses 5 through 9. Joshua accepted Moses' place of leadership without misgivings. God's will for him was his will, and he did not hesitate. To go "all out" for God was already habitual with him; it is the unfailing prerequisite of eternal success (Deut. 6:3-5; Ps. 1:1-3; Luke 10:25-28)."
So, do you want the secret to success? Here it is:
Well, if I may, what I see here is that success really means having God by your side. Success means that God will never forsake you or fail you. THEN we will prosper and "have success".
But, how do we know God is with us? What does success look like?
Does this answer our questions or just open up a whole slew of new ones? Hmmm...
So, do you want the secret to success? Here it is:
"No man shall be able to stand before you all the days of your life. As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will not fail you or forsake you. Be strong (confident) and of good courage, for you shall cause this people to inherit the land which I swore to their fathers to give them. Only you be strong and very courageous, that you may do according to all the law which Moses My servant commanded you. Turn not from it to the right hand or to the left, that you may prosper wherever you go. This Book of the Law shall not depart out of your mouth, but you shall meditate on it day and night, that you may observe and do according to all that is written in it. For then you shall make your way prosperous, and then you shall deal wisely and have goodsuccess. Have not I commanded you? Be strong, vigorous, and very courageous. Be not afraid, neither be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go." - Joshua 1:5-9Hmmmm? So to be success means (i) being strong, (ii) and courageous, (iii) keep God's law, (iv) let it not depart form our mouths, (v) meditate on it, (vi) observe, (vi) and do it. But if you look at those verses more closely, really what are they saying?
Well, if I may, what I see here is that success really means having God by your side. Success means that God will never forsake you or fail you. THEN we will prosper and "have success".
But, how do we know God is with us? What does success look like?
Does this answer our questions or just open up a whole slew of new ones? Hmmm...
Monday, December 20, 2004
Success... What Is It? (part 3)
As I mentioned in my previous post, the word success is actually only used once in the King James Translation. It is found in Joshua 1:8. And it comes from the Hebrew word sakal.
Now, this is not the only time we find sakal in the Old Testament, even though it is the only occurrence of the word success (in the early English translations). In other instances in the Old Testament (and there's over 60 instances) of the word sakal, it has been translated into the words understand or understanding, wise, wisely, or wisdom, prosper, consider, instruct, prudent, skill, teach, guiding, wittingly, behaved, skillful and, of course, success.
Interesting spread of words. No where in those words do I see any indication of success being some kind of destination or goal. Instead it seems to be very vague, at least vague to those who like things concrete, practical and in absolutes.
To me all these words give a sense of learning and growing; something that does not actually end. Because, we can always learn more, grow in deeper understanding (just ask a Microbiologist), have more wisdom, grow more skillful. Even when you are the best at something, say the fastest runner, you can always train more to gain that extra 1/100th of a second.
Well, I suppose we can then say that success is a journey, as John Maxwell put it.
But you know what. That also means that you are, or you can be, a success RIGHT NOW!
Think about it. Comment on it. I'll write more about that tomorrow.
Be blessed.
Now, this is not the only time we find sakal in the Old Testament, even though it is the only occurrence of the word success (in the early English translations). In other instances in the Old Testament (and there's over 60 instances) of the word sakal, it has been translated into the words understand or understanding, wise, wisely, or wisdom, prosper, consider, instruct, prudent, skill, teach, guiding, wittingly, behaved, skillful and, of course, success.
Interesting spread of words. No where in those words do I see any indication of success being some kind of destination or goal. Instead it seems to be very vague, at least vague to those who like things concrete, practical and in absolutes.
To me all these words give a sense of learning and growing; something that does not actually end. Because, we can always learn more, grow in deeper understanding (just ask a Microbiologist), have more wisdom, grow more skillful. Even when you are the best at something, say the fastest runner, you can always train more to gain that extra 1/100th of a second.
Well, I suppose we can then say that success is a journey, as John Maxwell put it.
But you know what. That also means that you are, or you can be, a success RIGHT NOW!
Think about it. Comment on it. I'll write more about that tomorrow.
Be blessed.
Friday, December 17, 2004
Success... What Is It? (part 2)
Did you know that in the King James Translation, there is only one use of the word success?
You'll find it in Joshua 1:8, and it reads, "This book of the law shall not depart out of thy mouth; but thou shalt meditate therein day and night, that thou mayest observe to do according to all that is written therein: for then thou shalt make thy way prosperous, and then thou shalt have good success."
Interesting, eh!?
When I looked up the Hebrew word used here, it was sakal, pronounced saw-kal'. It's Biblical uses range as follows:
1. To be prudent, be circumspect, wisely understand, prosper
a) (active verb) to be prudent, be circumspect
b) (passive verb)
i) to look at or upon, have insight
ii) to give attention to, consider, ponder, be prudent
iii) to have insight, have comprehension
- insight, comprehension (subst)
iv) to cause to consider, give insight, teach
- the teachers, the wise
v) to act circumspectly, act prudently, act wisely
vi) to prosper, have success
vii) to cause to prosper
2. (intensive active verb) to lay crosswise, cross (hands)
Interesting, eh!?
The Amplified translation adds this to the verse: "This Book of the Law shall not depart out of your mouth, but you shall meditate on it day and night, that you may observe and do according to all that is written in it. For then you shall make your way prosperous, and then you shall deal wisely and have good success. [This is the only place in the early English versions where the word "success" is found. The secret of success is given in verses 5 through 9. Joshua accepted Moses' place of leadership without misgivings. God's will for him was his will, and he did not hesitate. To go "all out" for God was already habitual with him; it is the unfailing prerequisite of eternal success (Deut. 6:3-5; Ps. 1:1-3; Luke 10:25-28).]"
Interesting, eh!?
There's no mention of success being a destination... Or even having anything to do with money, wealth, power or possessions. Hmmm? The word prosper only shows up three times in that definition above. And even that word has been twisted in its meaning. We often equate prosperity with financial prosperity, but it actually has a more holistic definition. Prosperity refers to a total, whole body/person prosperity, from health, wealth, emotions, relationships, etc...
There's a lot to chew on here. I'll leave it at that for now. I welcome your comments.
Be blessed!
You'll find it in Joshua 1:8, and it reads, "This book of the law shall not depart out of thy mouth; but thou shalt meditate therein day and night, that thou mayest observe to do according to all that is written therein: for then thou shalt make thy way prosperous, and then thou shalt have good success."
Interesting, eh!?
When I looked up the Hebrew word used here, it was sakal, pronounced saw-kal'. It's Biblical uses range as follows:
1. To be prudent, be circumspect, wisely understand, prosper
a) (active verb) to be prudent, be circumspect
b) (passive verb)
i) to look at or upon, have insight
ii) to give attention to, consider, ponder, be prudent
iii) to have insight, have comprehension
- insight, comprehension (subst)
iv) to cause to consider, give insight, teach
- the teachers, the wise
v) to act circumspectly, act prudently, act wisely
vi) to prosper, have success
vii) to cause to prosper
2. (intensive active verb) to lay crosswise, cross (hands)
Interesting, eh!?
The Amplified translation adds this to the verse: "This Book of the Law shall not depart out of your mouth, but you shall meditate on it day and night, that you may observe and do according to all that is written in it. For then you shall make your way prosperous, and then you shall deal wisely and have good success. [This is the only place in the early English versions where the word "success" is found. The secret of success is given in verses 5 through 9. Joshua accepted Moses' place of leadership without misgivings. God's will for him was his will, and he did not hesitate. To go "all out" for God was already habitual with him; it is the unfailing prerequisite of eternal success (Deut. 6:3-5; Ps. 1:1-3; Luke 10:25-28).]"
Interesting, eh!?
There's no mention of success being a destination... Or even having anything to do with money, wealth, power or possessions. Hmmm? The word prosper only shows up three times in that definition above. And even that word has been twisted in its meaning. We often equate prosperity with financial prosperity, but it actually has a more holistic definition. Prosperity refers to a total, whole body/person prosperity, from health, wealth, emotions, relationships, etc...
There's a lot to chew on here. I'll leave it at that for now. I welcome your comments.
Be blessed!
Thursday, December 16, 2004
Success... What Is It?
If I were to throw out the question, "What do you think success is?" I am sure I would get as many different answers as people have different hair colour. Weird analogy, but I think you get my point.
Nevertheless, I think the majority of people do view it as a destination; as a goal to get to; as a "place" you are not at yet, but hope to be someday; or something to that effect. The typical mentality would be something like, "I'm not quite there... Yet." And I suppose, many Christian view "ultimate" success as "getting" to heaven. (Why all the " "? Well, I'm not sure how each person really sees these things. We all have a different view or understanding of what "ultimate" means and even what "getting" to heaven means... But I am not a fan of arguing semantics, though I know that it IS important to get our definitions in order... But I digress)
Can I throw out four areas that most people would define as symbols or markers of success (sure I can... It is my blog :):
Well, the Scriptures definitely have a different view of what success is. And that's what I'm looking at. Will you now allow me to throw out a hypothesis? And will you join me as I seek out an answer to what success is?
Now, I read this definition from the book "Your Road Map For Success," by John C. Maxwell, so it's not necessarily my original idea. But, it did spark something in my mind. And since John Maxwell is a Christian and a pastor, I wanted to see if this definition was founded in Scripture. Here is the definition:
That's where my search begins. And I'll share with you what I've found so far in my next post.
Disclaimer: By no means do I profess myself to be an expert. I am just one who does not accept things at face value, and nor should you. I don't just absorb things from "pastors" and accept them as truth, without asking questions and seeking God for my own answers. Often, I come to the same conclusions... But, often enough, I have not, and have had to disagree with the "teacher". Ultimately, I stand before God, and God alone, to judge my heart and my actions... So He's the only one I am trying to please. So feel free to comment (I will not engage in a debate or argument though) and glean anything that may be of worth to you. BE BLESSED!
Nevertheless, I think the majority of people do view it as a destination; as a goal to get to; as a "place" you are not at yet, but hope to be someday; or something to that effect. The typical mentality would be something like, "I'm not quite there... Yet." And I suppose, many Christian view "ultimate" success as "getting" to heaven. (Why all the " "? Well, I'm not sure how each person really sees these things. We all have a different view or understanding of what "ultimate" means and even what "getting" to heaven means... But I am not a fan of arguing semantics, though I know that it IS important to get our definitions in order... But I digress)
Can I throw out four areas that most people would define as symbols or markers of success (sure I can... It is my blog :):
1. WealthCan we agree that for every person, each of these could--and probably does--mean something different, when you consider specifics in a person's life? And, can we also agree that your own definition of success probably has some element of one or more of these?
2. Specific & Worthwhile Possessions
3. Power
4. Achievement
Well, the Scriptures definitely have a different view of what success is. And that's what I'm looking at. Will you now allow me to throw out a hypothesis? And will you join me as I seek out an answer to what success is?
Now, I read this definition from the book "Your Road Map For Success," by John C. Maxwell, so it's not necessarily my original idea. But, it did spark something in my mind. And since John Maxwell is a Christian and a pastor, I wanted to see if this definition was founded in Scripture. Here is the definition:
Success is...It certainly sounds Christian... Well, it mentions sowing seeds... And serving :) Ultimately, John Maxwell describes success as a journey and not a destination. Hmmm... Sounds interesting. But, again, is it Scriptural?
knowing your purpose in life,
growing to reach your maximum potential, and
sowing seeds that benefit others.
That's where my search begins. And I'll share with you what I've found so far in my next post.
Disclaimer: By no means do I profess myself to be an expert. I am just one who does not accept things at face value, and nor should you. I don't just absorb things from "pastors" and accept them as truth, without asking questions and seeking God for my own answers. Often, I come to the same conclusions... But, often enough, I have not, and have had to disagree with the "teacher". Ultimately, I stand before God, and God alone, to judge my heart and my actions... So He's the only one I am trying to please. So feel free to comment (I will not engage in a debate or argument though) and glean anything that may be of worth to you. BE BLESSED!
Correction to December 6th Post
OK... So it wasn't an outline for the next week... :)
Hey, there's some meaty stuff here, and when I don't fully get it, how can I write about it, eh?!
Besides... I sometimes have trouble getting my priorities straight :)
Merry Christmas! Happy Birthday Jesus!
Hey, there's some meaty stuff here, and when I don't fully get it, how can I write about it, eh?!
Besides... I sometimes have trouble getting my priorities straight :)
Merry Christmas! Happy Birthday Jesus!
Monday, December 06, 2004
Outline for this Week
Well, God is doing a number on me... like He hasn't been all this time... but I think I'm starting to see where it's all going. There's a bunch of stuff I want to write about... for one, I want to finish the "10 Emerging Prophetic Shifts", but I'm still meditating on Day 4... I will write more on that.
Anyway, here's what I will be looking at and writing about thyis week:
1. Definition of Success from Scripture.
2. How to get people to catch your vision... from a Scriptural point of view.
3. Some thoughts on the 4th commandment: "Honour your father and mother..."
4. I want to share my vision for a 24/7 prayer & worship centre.
I guess that's it right now, but I'm sure there will be more... God is always talking... but are we always listening?
Anyway, here's what I will be looking at and writing about thyis week:
1. Definition of Success from Scripture.
2. How to get people to catch your vision... from a Scriptural point of view.
3. Some thoughts on the 4th commandment: "Honour your father and mother..."
4. I want to share my vision for a 24/7 prayer & worship centre.
I guess that's it right now, but I'm sure there will be more... God is always talking... but are we always listening?
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
10 Emerging Prophetic Shifts - Day 4
I'm stuck on day 4... I haven't even gone through what Chuck Pierce says in his word. Let me first share Chuck's words, and then I'll explain a little.
4. New Warfare strategies of recovery and reversal of fortune.
Chuck first mentions that we need to sit before the LORD and ask Him to give us the mind for recovery. Then he says to read 1 Samual 30:6-8. We need to encourage ourselves in the LORD, and not just look at our "bad" situation!
Read Jeremiah 30. LORD, give us an understanding of the power if restoration. LORD, we pray through Haggai 1-2. LORD, we decree that ALL disinterest, disillusionment, and discouragement will break from us! Father, we pray for every building project that You have placeed before us--which includes our ministries, our church, and even actually physical buildings. LORD, unlock that silver and gold these projects will need.
I have not been able to get past this. When I read each one of those passages above, it stirred something in me. We just came off of a week long conference. During that conference, many things were declared and taught and said, and God stirred up some dreams I thought were dead. BUT, I want to make sure that it is God and that it is His right timing before I say or do anything. That's why I am spending some time on this. I know there are projects He wants started... and if it is from the God of Heaven and Earth, the God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, the "silver and gold" will be released. Amen.
Be blessed.
4. New Warfare strategies of recovery and reversal of fortune.
Chuck first mentions that we need to sit before the LORD and ask Him to give us the mind for recovery. Then he says to read 1 Samual 30:6-8. We need to encourage ourselves in the LORD, and not just look at our "bad" situation!
Read Jeremiah 30. LORD, give us an understanding of the power if restoration. LORD, we pray through Haggai 1-2. LORD, we decree that ALL disinterest, disillusionment, and discouragement will break from us! Father, we pray for every building project that You have placeed before us--which includes our ministries, our church, and even actually physical buildings. LORD, unlock that silver and gold these projects will need.
I have not been able to get past this. When I read each one of those passages above, it stirred something in me. We just came off of a week long conference. During that conference, many things were declared and taught and said, and God stirred up some dreams I thought were dead. BUT, I want to make sure that it is God and that it is His right timing before I say or do anything. That's why I am spending some time on this. I know there are projects He wants started... and if it is from the God of Heaven and Earth, the God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, the "silver and gold" will be released. Amen.
Be blessed.
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